absent but working

A hint of beauty amongst all the chaos. Flowers from Marcus.

Over the past 3 weeks I've been a bit absent. Not just here but from a lot of different things. My day job has been exceptionally crazy and stressful as we finalize a project for the State Government and my boss goes OS for 5 weeks. Cranky customers because we are much, much busier than usual makes for a tense office environment and everyone is just getting a wee bit snappy with each other. I've been working hours that are so horrible I dare not add them up.

I've been asking "why" a lot during these weeks. Why do I bother. Why am I putting all my effort into just a job. Why should I put my life on hold for a business that isn't mine. Why am I pushing my body so hard that I get sick, stop sleeping and hurt all over. I guess after 7 years work is like a family, not just a job.

I could go on and on. Today has been my first real day off in weeks, the first chance to breathe and think. The first chance in a little while to look forward to the good things. Appreciate how supportive my good husband is, how dotting the small dog is, how much I love working for Lucy and on the Guest Blog and how loving my family and friend are.

Although, I know tomorrow I will feel a lot like this...